Dealing with the emotions of the past.

Three years ago I was given the opportunity to attend a self help course run by NAPAC. A charity that helps survivors of abuse. I look back and see that I’m not the same person. I’ve started to let go of the poisonous emotions. The rage and the shame are a shadow of their selves. […]

Drama and healing 1

So, the performance of my next play is on Thursday night, my character has a lot of emotion. He’s kind of always wound up. I’m the last few weeks I’ve used it to let off steam. I think the good thing is that it is helping me deal with my anger. I so enjoy the […]

A humbling experience

In 2011 I did some street evangelism in soho square. One experience from that weekend comes to mind. Our group were washing feet. There was this homeless young man, we got talking. I then offered to wash his feet. While doing this he shared something with me. He was a survivor of abuse, but he […]

Tears and dreams

Tears that heal Drop by drop Dream by Dream Tears of my past Drop by drop Healing my past Tears of my dreams Drop by drop Freeing me, to live

Survivors United

It is time that male survivors of sexual abuse were helped out of the darkness. It’s time that to many men commit suicide because they are ignored by the health service. It’s also time that this macho crap is dropped by society. A man or boy should feel secure that they’re going to be believed. […]

Chains

You bound me in chains Chains of deceit And chains of shame You locked me in your power You took away my innocence You trapped in your lie Then I saw the light A light that heals That burns the locks away I broke your chains With the truth That I’m a survivor I’ve shattered […]

Easier

How it gets easier to share my story. As time has progressed I’ve found it easier to share. To be able to use my experience to help others. To share my story is a privilege. Even though It’s been hard sometimes and it’s caused me some trouble. I feel it’s. been worth it. Earlier, I […]

Four years

Four years since I shone the light Four years since I broke my silence Four years since I shed the shame Four years of pain and growth Four years of dismantling my walls Four year of tears for a lost childhood Four years a victim Four years a survivor Four years a thriver Four years […]

Being an introvert

Being an introvert and having to work in a large office. This has been the hardest thing for me over the last 3 years. Working in a large team of mainly extroverts is really hard. I really like my team but I could just work on my own just as well. I find it draining, […]

Four years

Four years ago I disclosed to my counsellor that I was sexually abused. It just popped out at the end of the session. I never realised how hard things were going to get. The pain I would have to go through. Having to face the reality that I’d pushed this down. That I had denied […]

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