My journey to neurodivergent joy
My Thoughts on the neurodiverse world
Over the last three years, I have been looking for something to describe my journey. Today I learned that, I have been navigating through a maze. I think that for the last three years, I have been on the journey to the centre. Journeying on a reflective journey. A journey, to find the real me. […]
Read More The Maze: An Autistic Journey #ActuallyAutisticThe last month or so, has been a rollercoaster. I’ve have been to hell and back. I have to say eleven years ago, I would probably have ended it all. Now I can see it’s part of the healing process. Tonight I perform for the last time, for a while. After this I’ll be taking […]
Read More Last showSo a new year and decade. The start to my year has been hard. I’m still struggling with grief and depression. The outlook however, is more positive. Next week I start therapy and in February, I finally have my assessment appointment. This brings it’s own issues but I believe that it will hopefully answer one […]
Read More 2020Tonight I found a journal that I wrote in 2010/11 and a book that has helped me. When I look through my journals, I see a frightened young teenager stuck in the body of a 38 year old man. Reading through the pages some legible others not. Some of the notes are screaming for help […]
Read More Looking back, to look forward.I wish I could have known you I wish I could have helped you I wish that I hadn’t scared you I wish I could have loved you I wish you’d listened I wish you’d been there I wish you’d cared about me I wish you’d loved me But Ed, you know that you’re loved […]
Read More WishesLife is a journey, from the past to the future Every step moves you forward For better of for worse Every decision you make, to go left or to go right. Where ever you go The future is not written
Read More The futureThe wounded memory, the pain that never goes The moment, frozen in time For good or ill, The wounded memory, slowly healing Day by day, night by night Moving forward, to peace The wounded memory, never fully healed But feeling safe, feeling alive Hopeful, living again
Read More The wounded memoryI am starting to think of the future. Over the last few days I am starting to see the light of my healing. I realise that I will never get over this fully but if I give in to whre God is leading me I can really see more light. It isn’t easy to think […]
Read More Looking to the futureSo it is goodbye to 2010. I have to ask the question was the year that bad. I know the last nine months haven’t been the best but looking back I can see some light in the darkness. I supose that I’ve been living in darkness and pain for 25 years. As my brother said […]
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My journey to neurodivergent joy 