My journey to neurodivergent joy
My Thoughts on the neurodiverse world
The Masked Ed, who always smiles. Even though the pain. To be like all others The Masked Ed, living the lie. To make others feel comfortable. Not showing my true self The Masked Ed, who tries so hard. Tries to fit in. But not quite, doing it The Masked Ed, fighting on. Fighting for the […]
Read More Masked Ed. #ActuallyAutisticWe have a broken mental health system. It’s a system that only offers sufficient support to those in danger of suicide. My case in point, almost 50 years of autistic trauma, no support since diagnosis over two years ago. When you ask for help and support, then have to wait a long time. When you […]
Read More A broken system. #mentalhealth #ActuallyAutisticI seem to have spent the last eleven years, fighting the system. A broken system, with some of the most caring people. They keep it running and are there for people who are struggling. I’ve been given an opportunity to make a change. I am an involvement representative, with my local health Trust. As someone […]
Read More Still fighting a broken system #ActuallAutisticI have been given the opportunity, to give something back. My local mental health Trust, are recruiting involvement representatives. It’s a chance to bring an autistic voice to the table. A lot of times autistic voices, go unheard. It’s like we don’t exist or we’re not capable of being useful. I have found that the […]
Read More Giving back #ActulallyAutisticYesterday was the first time I’d vent out on my own, sinc lockdown was lifted and first time since diagnosis in 2020. I travelled across London on public transport, which was very hard. Thankfully I had my headphones and a good book. I went to my first autism event, it was a craft fair and […]
Read More Moving forward #ActuallyAutisicWell I’m feeling more confident in myself. Being open about my gender has given me some freedom. For the last month or so, I’ve managed to keep my emotions in check and managed find some actual relax. Now as I am moving in the right direction. I feel I can finally start to be someone […]
Read More Finding my confidence #ActuallyAutisticFor the last few months I have struggled with acceptance. Acceptance of my diagnosis. This has lead to some regression and a drop in functioning. I am beginning to understand that, it will take a few years to adjust. Acceptance, from family has always been something, I couldn’t gauge. I think it’s because I hadn’t […]
Read More Acceptance as an autisticBefore I was diagnosed, I would say I was one of those who would pigeon hole people. I would avoid anyone different. I was someone who would infantalise people and talk down to them. I thought I was being one of the lads. Since starting this journey, I have realised that what I was doing. […]
Read More My Shame #ActuallyAutisticA year ago this week u was diagnosed with sevre combined ADHD. The impact on me has been immeasurable. Dealing with 49 years of masking is the hardest thing I’ve ever had to face. I never realised how I hid myself and how much it has ruled my life. Even a year on it’s like […]
Read More Adhd anniversary #ActuallyAutistic #ADHDSo after a few weeks of respite, my struggles have returned. The reality of living with ADHD and Autism, is hard. Having to deal with racing thoughts and a mind that never shuts down, is one of the hardest things to deal with. Having to admit that you can’t cope is also I tough thing […]
Read More Back to reality
My journey to neurodivergent joy 