The last few months I have been expierencing extreme burnout. For me it has caused masive meltdowns and doubting myself. I am realising the almost fifty years of masking. This means I have been trying to fit in.
One of the biggest things I am struggling, is being social. Even in a virtual world, it is becoming increasingly hard to socialise. The problem is because I am burnt out, my energy levels are so low. Also I have had an issue with maintaining my emotions.
My meltdowns have been more regular of late, these leave me exhausted and irritable. I feel that I am constantly fighting myself everyday.
This part of my journey, has to be the hardest part. As I write this, I have started a new part of my journey, my GP has referred me for an ADHD assessment, hopefully this will help me understand myself.
Burnout is not a nice thing to be dealing with. It is, sadly all too common. One of the things that society can do is be paitent with late diagnosed autistics. We have lived a long time trying to fit in