The chance that it would come back 

The last few days. I’ve had a reminder of how much work I still need to do. I was kind of expecting it but not so bad. Since last Friday my mood and emotions have become more erratic. I can’t explain why or how, but there your are. 

Again I have noticed the signs and have prepared. This isn’t easy but I know every time,I move a little further in the right way.

So, it’s time for me to face the black dog once again. 

Seven years and thriving 

So seven years ago I started this journey, I never thought that I would have survived. I have more tha than survived I’ve beaten the really bad stuff. I’ve taken so many steps. 

When this came up in 2010, I thought my world had ended. I was so wrong, this is where my life started. Yes it stated in pain and turmoil, it continued with me contemplating whether I deserved to live. 

After nine months of total and utter chaos, I started my new life. Soon after this my life got more interesting. Little did I know that five years or so along the line, I would be writing this from a positive position.

But sometimes life gives you a hand up, well I have had that. With the help of great friends and family I’ve dragged myself out of hell. 

Now, I’m enjoying life, I’m feeling alive and moreover I’m thriving. Even though I have bad days, they seem to have less of an impact.

Recovery is always possible and anyone who is struggling just needs to remember that you are so worth it. 

My life is so good now, I would never have believed that I am a thriver. 

The dream

It starts on midsummer’s night, with a prince and a queen 

Four fairies dancing around

Enter the duke with rivals and lovers
The mischievous Puck and the fairy King 

An angry King, against the queen

Enter the fools, a play they have
Naughty Puck, playing Cupid 

Lovers, mixed faires vexed

The fools and an ass
Fairies dance, the King is happy

The ass becomes a fool

The duke weds and the rivals friends
A play, tragedy and a lion

All is well

Puck is good
All in a midsummer’s night dream

The dream may be over

But the memories, last a lifetime