So this week my thoughts have been mixed. I’ve had moments of real emotion and some of drought. Tonight I decided to think about the reason. I can’t put my finger on any one cause.
I think it’s another stage of my healing, learning to appreciate my feelings and emotions. One of the questions I’ve been asking myself is. If I could go back and stop it happening, would I?
Well, to be honest I would never go back. I have learned so much over the last six years. I’ve met so many wonderful people who I may never have met. People who have seen me at my lowest and at my highest, people who accept me for being me. This gift is greater than hurt and pain I’ve felt.
It may seem strange but in a way, I’m thankful for having to deal with this. To him, you will lose because I am standing my ground. I’m facing what you did and making a better life for myself. I’m beating your memory everyday in ways I never dreamed of, whether at my job or in my hobby.
I’m standing tall and facing my past and saying “I will win, I will thrive”