I should be enjoying the festive season. But thanks to intrusive memories of late I’ve been struggling.
My sleep pattern has been erratic at best and awful at worst. The memories of my past are quite painful. I know that if I’m reliving these, I’m probably ready to face them.
What happened had changed my perception of fun and christmas. The thing is I have to wear those masks that I’m so used to wearing. The fake smile and jolly laugh.
I can’t wait now for the Christmas season to be over.
My journey to neurodivergent joy 