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Redefining my past

Redefining my past, why I’ve had to change. Four years ago I was the pitiful victim, or so I thought.

I thought I was the only victim. Everyone else was against me. I spent my time with my head bowed all the time. It was a time where I felt so alone. I isolated myself from the people I lived with.

When I tried to be with others, felt like a outsider.

Now when I look back I see that I wasn’t to blame for these feelings. It was him. Even though he wasn’t there, he moulded all my actions. He had control over me. His control was so strong I couldn’t feel.

It was only after leaving the community I was able to break his control in my life. I think my issues there were related to control. I felt I had no control of my healing process.

It was only after leaving I realised that, I had broken his control over me. There was a vacuum for a while. When I had no direction. Now only one person controls my healing. Me.

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One response to “Redefining my past

  1. so glad you have your control back now where it belongs, to you. xoxo

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