I seem to be in a cycle of chasing shadows. It’s like I make progress then regress. I seem to start to make sense of my past then I feel that I lose the plot.
I feel like I chasing shadows, never getting to the root cause. The depression keeps casting it’s shadow. I want this to go. I hate the depression and the way it makes me feel.
I keep asking why me?
The thoughts I have are quite painful at times. Thoughts of the life I lost. The chances I let go. The love I lost.
I’m having to live with the shadow of a past I can’t go back and change. Almost 30 years of pain. How can I just let it go.
I’ve come so far but it seems a long, long way still to go.