I’m kind of struggling at the moment with being so outspoken. The fact I’ve put myself in the limelight has made me feel uneasy. I sometimes just want to clam up and hide. My feelings are mixed, if I speak up I feel I’ve made myself vulnerable and if I don’t speak up I feel the shame coming over me.
So it seems I’m dealing with a two edge sword. I want this to be in the open but I’m afraid of the vulnerability and opening myself to more hurt. Maybe I should just ride the waves.