While I’m now leaving my past behind, I realise that this is what my abuser did not want. He wanted me to live in his shadow. In his lie.
By revealing my secret, his hold on me is lessening and I’m beginning to pity the creature left behind. A depraved evil person.
My next steps maybe to work on my confidence and self esteem. This has already begun at work by me taking responsibility for my development (with a little nudge from my supervisor ).
I still believe that one day I’ll be able to help other survivors of abuse. A chance to share some of the insights I’ve received.
I now start the steps however small in to a bigger world where I have a voice.