Last night durning rehearsal I popped open the emotional bottle. I realise that by doing this my careful control of emotions has gone. I’ve been rationing my emotions over the last weeks and months.
I didn’t realise what would happens if I let go. It is like shaking a bottle of champagne and releasing the cork. I realise that I had psyched myself so I could perform. I now regret this as I don’t know how to control these powerful emotions.
It’s like emotion overload.