I am having some serious trust issues at the moment. I seem to be in flight and fight mode all the time. It feels like I’m jumping at everything.
The biggest issue is I don’t trust my self. I have always had these issues. How can I trust anyone else if I don’t trust my judgement. My confidence is shot. I feel that I keep shooting myself in the foot.
Today I realised that I have to give up on a dream with no replacement. The dream I had to be a priest is now in tatters as I would not pass the psych test. The has almost destroyed my confidence. Coupled with the loneliness has left me bereft of all my dreams.